Wednesday, December 20, 2017

Dont let me go.

He smiles.
He laughed.
He gave courage to others.
He don't want everyone to be sad.
He knew that everyone tried hard.
But he forgot to do that to himself.

He kept if by himself.
He decided to end it.
To end the pain.
How hard is it to be him?
How hard is it to be someone that didn't have anyone to hold on?

Nobody is perfect.
Pray to Allah to give you strength on your lowest time.
Talk to Allah.
Cry to Him.
He will help you.
Cause Allah's timing is never wrong.
Have faith. He wants you to wait a little bit more.

Smile peeps xoxo.

Sunday, October 8, 2017

dusk till dawn.

The feeling when you loved someone,
and you just wanna see him happy,
with her,
with his life,
you tried everything you could,
just to protect his smile,
even without you,
thats when you realized that,
love is true,
love didnt betray you,
love always win.

Tuesday, July 25, 2017


Rupanya dia pun begitu.
Setiap momen momen kita.
Oh Tuhan.
Inikah jawapan mu?

Monday, July 3, 2017


Aku kira kita telah mati,
Aku kira kamu sudah pergi,
Tpi andainya takdir yg mmbawa kita kembali,
Apakah kamu masih mau prgi?

Friday, March 24, 2017


Kita lihat dia senyum,
Kita lihat dia gembira,
Kita lihat dia senang,
Kita lihat dia kaya-raya,
Kita lihat dia berjaya,
Kita lihat dia kuat,
Kita lihat dia tabah,
Kita lihat dia kosong,
Kita lihat dia redha,

Kita lupa lihat satu benda,
Kita lupa lihat dia menangis.

p/s; i swear life is hard, i swear it is.i cried a river for knowing all of these.

Monday, March 20, 2017

This time, i started writing.

Sometimes, life gives you no choice right?
So did I.
Im sad that my mom still didnt change,
Still treat me like im a 6 years old girl,
Its love but love should let the beloved one happy.
When everyone knew that i cant meet exo bcs of my mom's permission,
Everyone was like 'Weh sedihnya...' 'Sabarla haida' 'Nnti ada la tu rezeki'
I usually didnt talk much abt my family, bcs its our family right?
Takkan nak citer benda buruk.
But rn im so cracked, sad, depressed....
I thought that when i changed to be a better daughter,
They will change too.
They will let me live, decide for my own life.
Im already 21 years old.
I can think baik buruk, i can take care of myself.
Its not like i will forget Allah when i did this,
But nothing's changed..
They still same, the old them.
Somehow i feel like; omg why they still dont realized why i become so passive with them before??
Why i cant share all my stories with them??
Why i should doing something without telling them?
They still didnt realized it..
They still didnt know the reasons,
The reason why i cant be a daughter like what they wanted,
Because they never knew me at the first place.
I thought time will change everything,
But its all useless, hopeless....

Thats why i cant stay at home for a long time,
i will depressed...
Bcs u cant derhaka with ur parents right?
so the best way to elakkan semua tu,
jauhkan diri with your home.
Im sorry,  but i really disappointed this time.
I always pray to Allah that u will change your mind one day,
knowing your kids well, dont let my brothers and sister depressed at home,
we really hope that u will open ur mind soon, sorry.

Thursday, March 16, 2017


Bila mana kau melepaskan sesuatu yg kau sayang demi Allah,demi kedua ibu bapamu,
Yakinlah Dia tetapkan sesuatu terbaik untukmu.

My dream falls into pieces, this feeling is same as when i have to let someone that i loved go for everyone happiness.
That time will come haida, sabar.

Sunday, February 26, 2017

Shape of You.

Im in love with the shape of your love,
Im in love with all of your edges,
Im in love with your body,
Im in love with the shape of you.

I loved it.

Friday, January 13, 2017


So, I asked myself again.
Did I really forgetting you?